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by Henry James
Yes indeedI say to myselfpen in handI can keep hold of the
thread and let it lead me back to the first impression. The little
story is all thereI can touch it from point to point; for the
threadas I call itis a row of coloured beads on a string. None
of the beads are missing--at least I think they're not: that's
exactly what I shall amuse myself with finding out.
I had been all summer working hard in town and then had gone down
to Folkestone for a blow. Art was longI feltand my holiday
short; my mother was settled at Folkestoneand I paid her a visit
when I could. I remember how on this occasionafter weeks in my
stuffy studio with my nose on my paletteI sniffed up the clean
salt air and cooled my eyes with the purple sea. The place was
full of lodgingsand the lodgings were at that season full of
peoplepeople who had nothing to do but to stare at one another on
the great flat down. There were thousands of little chairs and
almost as many little Jews; and there was music in an open rotunda
over which the little Jews wagged their big noses. We all strolled
to and fro and took pennyworths of rest; the longlevel cliff-top
edged in places with its iron railmight have been the deck of a
huge crowded ship. There were old folks in Bath chairsand there
was one dear chaircreeping to its last full stopby the side of
which I always walked. There was in fine weather the coast of
France to look atand there were the usual things to say about it;
there was also in every state of the atmosphere our friend Mrs.
Meldruma subject of remark not less inveterate. The widow of an
officer in the Engineersshe had settledlike many members of the
martial miscellanywell within sight of the hereditary enemywho
however had left her leisure to form in spite of the difference of
their years a close alliance with my mother. She was the
heartiestthe keenestthe ugliest of womenthe least apologetic
the least morbid in her misfortune. She carried it high aloft with
loud sounds and free gesturesmade it flutter in the breeze as if
it had been the flag of her country. It consisted mainly of a big
red faceindescribably out of drawingfrom which she glared at
you through gold-rimmed aids to visionoptic circles of such
diameter and so frequently displaced that some one had vividly
spoken of her as flattering her nose against the glass of her
spectacles. She was extraordinarily near-sightedand whatever
they did to other objects they magnified immensely the kind eyes
behind them. Blest conveniences they werein their hideous
honest strength--they showed the good lady everything in the world
but her own queerness. This element was enhanced by wild braveries
of dressreckless charges of colour and stubborn resistances of
cutwondrous encounters in which the art of the toilet seemed to
lay down its life. She had the tread of a grenadier and the voice
of an angel.
In the course of a walk with her the day after my arrival I found
myself grabbing her arm with sudden and undue familiarity. I had
been struck by the beauty of a face that approached us and I was
still more affected when I saw the faceat the sight of my
companionopen like a window thrown wide. A smile fluttered out
of it an brightly as a drapery dropped from a sill--a drapery
shaken there in the sun by a young lady flanked by two young mena
wonderful young lady whoas we drew nearerrushed up to Mrs.
Meldrum with arms flourished for an embrace. My immediate
impression of her had been that she was dressed in mourningbut
during the few moments she stood talking with our friend I made
more discoveries. The figure from the neck down was meagrethe
stature insignificantbut the desire to please towered highas
well as the air of infallibly knowing how and of nevernever
missing it. This was a little person whom I would have made a high
bid for a good chance to paint. The headthe featuresthe
colourthe whole facial oval and radiance had a wonderful purity;
the deep grey eyes--the most agreeableI thoughtthat I had ever
seen--brushed with a kind of winglike grace every object they
encountered. Their possessor was just back from Boulognewhere
she had spent a week with dear Mrs. Floyd-Taylor: this accounted
for the effusiveness of her reunion with dear Mrs. Meldrum. Her
black garments were of the freshest and daintiest; she suggested a
pink-and-white wreath at a showy funeral. She confounded us for
three minutes with her presence; she was a beauty of the great
conscious public responsible order. The young menher companions
gazed at her and grinned: I could see there were very few moments
of the day at which young menthese or otherswould not be so
occupied. The people who approached took leave of their manners;
every one seemed to linger and gape. When she brought her face
close to Mrs. Meldrum's--and she appeared to be always bringing it
close to somebody's--it was a marvel that objects so dissimilar
should express the same general identitythe unmistakable
character of the English gentlewoman. Mrs. Meldrum sustained the
comparison with her usual couragebut I wondered why she didn't
introduce me: I should have had no objection to the bringing of
such a face close to mine. Howeverby the time the young lady
moved on with her escort she herself bequeathed me a sense that
some such RAPPROCHEMENT might still occur. Was this by reason of
the general frequency of encounters at Folkestoneor by reason of
a subtle acknowledgment that she contrived to make of the rights
on the part of othersthat such beauty as hers created? I was in
a position to answer that question after Mrs. Meldrum had answered
a few of mine.
Flora Sauntthe only daughter of an old soldierhad lost both her
parentsher mother within a few months. Mrs. Meldrum had known
themdisapproved of themconsiderably avoided them: she had
watched the girloff and onfrom her early childhood. Flora
just twentywas extraordinarily alone in the world--so alone that
she had no natural chaperonno one to stay with but a mercenary
strangerMrs. Hammond Syngethe sister-in-law of one of the young
men I had just seen. She had lots of friendsbut none of them
nice: she kept picking up impossible people. The Floyd-Taylors
with whom she had been at Boulognewere simply horrid. The
Hammond Synges were perhaps not so vulgarbut they had no
conscience in their dealings with her.
She knows what I think of them,said Mrs. Meldrumand indeed
she knows what I think of most things.
She shares that privilege with most of your friends!I replied
No doubt; but possibly to some of my friends it makes a little
difference. That girl doesn't care a button. She knows best of
all what I think of Flora Saunt.
And what may your opinion be?
Why, that she's not worth troubling about-- an idiot too abysmal.
Doesn't she care for that?
Just enough, as you saw, to hug me till I cry out. She's too
pleased with herself for anything else to matter.
Surely, my dear friend,I rejoinedshe has a good deal to be
So every one tells her, and so you would have told her if I had
given you the chance. However, that doesn't signify either, for
her vanity is beyond all making or mending. She believes in
herself, and she's welcome, after all, poor dear, having only
herself to look to. I've seldom met a young woman more completely
free to be silly. She has a clear course--she'll make a showy
Well,I repliedas she probably will reduce many persons to the
same degraded state, her partaking of it won't stand out so much.
If you mean that the world's full of twaddlers I quite agree with
you!cried Mrs. Meldrumtrumpeting her laugh half across the
I had after this to consider a little what she would call my
mother's sonbut I didn't let it prevent me from insisting on her
making me acquainted with Flora Saunt; indeed I took the bull by
the hornsurging that she had drawn the portrait of a nature which
common charity now demanded of her to put into relation with a
character really fine. Such a frail creature was just an object of
pity. This contention on my part had at first of course been
jocular; but strange to say it was quite the ground I found myself
taking with regard to our young lady after I had begun to know her.
I couldn't have said what I felt about her except that she was
undefended; from the first of my sitting with her there after
dinnerunder the stars--that was a week at Folkestone of balmy
nights and muffled tides and crowded chairs--I became aware both
that protection was wholly absent from her life and that she was
wholly indifferent to its absence. The odd thing was that she was
not appealing: she was abjectlydivinely conceitedabsurdly
fantastically pleased. Her beauty was as yet all the world to her
a world she had plenty to do to live in. Mrs. Meldrum told me more
about herand there was nothing thatas the centre of a group of
gigglingnudging spectatorsFlora wasn't ready to tell about
herself. She held her little court in the crowdupon the grass
playing her light over Jews and Gentilescompletely at ease in all
promiscuities. It was an effect of these things that from the very
firstwith every one listeningI could mention that my main
business with her would be just to have a go at her head and to
arrange in that view for an early sitting. It would have been as
impossibleI thinkto be impertinent to her as it would have been
to throw a stone at a plate-glass window; so any talk that went
forward on the basis of her loveliness was the most natural thing
in the world and immediately became the most general and sociable.
It was when I saw all this that I judged howthough it was the
last thing she asked forwhat one would ever most have at her
service was a curious compassion. That sentiment was coloured by
the vision of the dire exposure of a being whom vanity had put so
off her guard. Hers was the only vanity I have ever known that
made its possessor superlatively soft. Mrs. Meldrum's further
information contributed moreover to these indulgences--her account
of the girl's neglected childhood and queer continental
relegationswith straying squabbling Monte-Carlo-haunting parents;
the more invidious pictureabove allof her pecuniary
arrangementstill in forcewith the Hammond Syngeswho really
though they never took her out--practically she went out alone--had
their hands half the time in her pocket. She had to pay for
everythingdown to her share of the wine-bills and the horses'
fodderdown to Bertie Hammond Synge's fare in the "underground"
when he went to the City for her. She had been left with just
money enough to turn her head; and it hadn't even been put in
trustnothing prudent or proper had been done with it. She could
spend her capitaland at the rate she was goingexpensive
extravagant and with a swarm of parasites to helpit certainly
wouldn't last very long.
Couldn't YOU perhaps take her, independent, unencumbered as you
are?I asked of Mrs. Meldrum. "You're probablywith one
exceptionthe sanest person she knowsand you at least wouldn't
scandalously fleece her."
How do you know what I wouldn't do?my humorous friend demanded.
Of course I've thought how I can help her--it has kept me awake at
night. But doing it's impossible; she'll take nothing from me.
You know what she does--she hugs me and runs away. She has an
instinct about me and feels that I've one about her. And then she
dislikes me for another reason that I'm not quite clear about, but
that I'm well aware of and that I shall find out some day. So far
as her settling with me goes it would be impossible moreover here;
she wants naturally enough a much wider field. She must live in
London--her game is there. So she takes the line of adoring me, of
saying she can never forget that I was devoted to her mother--which
I wouldn't for the world have been--and of giving me a wide berth.
I think she positively dislikes to look at me. It's all right;
there's no obligation; though people in general can't take their
eyes off me.
I see that at this moment,I replied. "But what does it matter
where or howfor the presentshe lives? She'll marry infallibly
marry earlyand everything then will change."
Whom will she marry?my companion gloomily asked.
Any one she likes. She's so abnormally pretty that she can do
anything. She'll fascinate some nabob or some prince.
She'll fascinate him first and bore him afterwards. Moreover
she's not so pretty as you make her out; she hasn't a scrap of a
No doubt, but one doesn't in the least miss it.
Not now,said Mrs. Meldrumbut one will when she's older and
when everything will have to count.
When she's older she'll count as a princess, so it won't matter.
She has other drawbacks,my companion went on. "Those wonderful
eyes are good for nothing but to roll about like sugar-balls--which
they greatly resemble--in a child's mouth. She can't use them."
Use them? Why, she does nothing else.
To make fools of young men, but not to read or write, not to do
any sort of work. She never opens a book, and her maid writes her
notes. You'll say that those who live in glass houses shouldn't
throw stones. Of course I know that if I didn't wear my goggles I
shouldn't be good for much.
Do you mean that Miss Saunt ought to sport such things?I
exclaimed with more horror than I meant to show.
I don't prescribe for her; I don't know that they're what she
What's the matter with her eyes?I asked after a moment.
I don't exactly know; but I heard from her mother years ago that
even as a child they had had for a while to put her into spectacles
and that though she hated them and had been in a fury of disgust,
she would always have to be extremely careful. I'm sure I hope she
I echoed the hopebut I remember well the impression this made
upon me--my immediate pang of resentmenta disgust almost equal to
Flora's own. I felt as if a great rare sapphire had split in my
This conversation occurred the night before I went back to town. I
settled on the morrow to take a late trainso that I had still my
morning to spend at Folkestonewhere during the greater part of it
I was out with my mother. Every one in the place was as usual out
with some one elseand even had I been free to go and take leave
of her I should have been sure that Flora Saunt would not be at
home. Just where she was I presently discovered: she was at the
far end of the cliffthe point at which it overhangs the pretty
view of Sandgate and Hythe. Her backhoweverwas turned to this
attraction; it rested with the aid of her elbowsthrust slightly
behind her so that her scanty little shoulders were raised toward
her earson the high rail that inclosed the down. Two gentlemen
stood before her whose faces we couldn't see but who even as
observed from the rear were visibly absorbed in the charming
figure-piece submitted to them. I was freshly struck with the fact
that this meagre and defective little personwith the cock of her
hat and the flutter of her crapewith her eternal idlenessher
eternal happinessher absence of moods and mysteries and the
pretty presentation of her feetwhich especially now in the
supported slope of her posture occupied with their imperceptibility
so much of the foreground--I was reminded anewI sayhow our
young lady dazzled by some art that the enumeration of her merits
didn't explain and that the mention of her lapses didn't affect.
Where she was amiss nothing countedand where she was right
everything did. I say she was wanting in mysterybut that after
all was her secret. This happened to be my first chance of
introducing her to my motherwho had not much left in life but the
quiet look from under the hood of her chair at the things which
when she should have quitted those she lovedshe could still trust
to make the world good for them. I wondered an instant how much
she might be moved to trust Flora Sauntand then while the chair
stood still and she waited I went over and asked the girl to come
and speak to her. In this way I saw that if one of Flora's
attendants was the inevitable young Hammond Syngemaster of
ceremonies of her regular courtalways offering the use of a
telescope and accepting that of a cigarthe other was a personage
I had not yet encountereda small pale youth in showy
knickerbockerswhose eyebrows and nose and the glued points of
whose little moustache were extraordinarily uplifted and sustained.
I remember taking him at first for a foreigner and for something of
a pretender: I scarce know why unless because of the motive I felt
in the stare he fixed on me when I asked Miss Saunt to come away.
He struck me a little as a young man practising the social art of
impertinence; but it didn't matterfor Flora came away with
alacritybringing all her prettiness and pleasure and gliding over
the grass in that rustle of delicate mourning which made the
endless variety of her garmentsas a painter could take heed
strike one always as the same obscure elegance. She seated herself
on the floor of my mother's chaira little too much on her right
instep as I afterwards gatheredcaressing her still handsmiling
up into her cold facecommending and approving her without a
reserve and without a doubt. She told her immediatelyas if it
were something for her to hold on bythat she was soon to sit to
me for a "likeness and these words gave me a chance to enquire if
it would be the fate of the picture, should I finish it, to be
presented to the young man in the knickerbockers. Her lips, at
this, parted in a stare; her eyes darkened to the purple of one of
the shadow-patches on the sea. She showed for the passing instant
the face of some splendid tragic mask, and I remembered for the
inconsequence of it what Mrs. Meldrum had said about her sight. I
had derived from this lady a worrying impulse to catechise her, but
that didn't seem exactly kind; so I substituted another question,
inquiring who the pretty young man in knickerbockers might happen
Oh a gentleman I met at Boulogne. He has come over to see me."
After a moment she added: "Lord Iffield."
I had never heard of Lord Iffieldbut her mention of his having
been at Boulogne helped me to give him a niche. Mrs. Meldrum had
incidentally thrown a certain light on the manners of Mrs. Floyd-
TaylorFlora's recent hostess in that charming towna lady who
it appearedhad a special vocation for helping rich young men to
find a use for their leisure. She had always one or other in hand
and had apparently on this occasion pointed her lesson at the rare
creature on the opposite coast. I had a vague idea that Boulogne
was not a resort of the world's envied; at the same time there
might very well have been a strong attraction there even for one of
the darlings of fortune. I could perfectly understand in any case
that such a darling should be drawn to Folkestone by Flora Saunt.
But it was not in truth of these things I was thinking; what was
uppermost in my mind was a matter whichthough it had no sort of
keepinginsisted just then on coming out.
Is it true, Miss Saunt,I suddenly demandedthat you're so
unfortunate as to have had some warning about your beautiful eyes?
I was startled by the effect of my words; the girl threw back her
headchanging colour from brow to chin. "True? Who in the world
says so?" I repented of my question in a flash; the way she met it
made it seem crueland I felt my mother look at me in some
surprise. I took carein answer to Flora's challengenot to
incriminate Mrs. Meldrum. I answered that the rumour had reached
me only in the vaguest form and that if I had been moved to put it
to the test my very real interest in her must be held responsible.
Her blush died awaybut a pair of still prettier tears glistened
in its track. "If you ever hear such a thing said again you can
say it's a horrid lie!" I had brought on a commotion deeper than
any I was prepared for; but it was explained in some degree by the
next words she uttered: "I'm happy to say there's nothing the
matter with any part of me whatevernot the least little thing!"
She spoke with her habitual complacencywith triumphant assurance;
she smiled againand I could see how she wished that she hadn't so
taken me up. She turned it off with a laugh. "I've good eyes
good teetha good digestion and a good temper. I'm sound of wind
and limb!" Nothing could have been more characteristic than her
blush and her tearsnothing less acceptable to her than to be
thought not perfect in every particular. She couldn't submit to
the imputation of a flaw. I expressed my delight in what she told
meassuring her I should always do battle for her; and as if to
rejoin her companions she got up from her place on my mother's
toes. The young men presented their backs to us; they were leaning
on the rail of the cliff. Our incident had produced a certain
awkwardnessand while I was thinking of what next to say she
exclaimed irrelevantly: "Don't you know? He'll be Lord
Considine." At that moment the youth marked for this high destiny
turned roundand she spoke to my mother. "I'll introduce him to
you--he's awfully nice." She beckoned and invited him with her
parasol; the movement struck me as taking everything for granted.
I had heard of Lord Considine and if I had not been able to place
Lord Iffield it was because I didn't know the name of his eldest
son. The young man took no notice of Miss Saunt's appeal; he only
stared a moment and then on her repeating it quietly turned his
back. She was an odd creature: she didn't blush at this; she only
said to my mother apologeticallybut with the frankest sweetest
amusementYou don't mind, do you? He's a monster of shyness!
It was as if she were sorry for every one--for Lord Iffieldthe
victim of a complaint so painfuland for my motherthe subject of
a certain slight. "I'm sure I don't want him!" said my motherbut
Flora added some promise of how she would handle him for his
rudeness. She would clearly never explain anything by any failure
of her own appeal. There rolled over me while she took leave of us
and floated back to her friends a wave of superstitious dread. I
seemed somehow to see her go forth to her fateand yet what should
fill out this orb of a high destiny if not such beauty and such
joy? I had a dim idea that Lord Considine was a great proprietor
and though there mingled with it a faint impression that I
shouldn't like his son the result of the two images was a whimsical
prayer that the girl mightn't miss her possible fortune.
One day in the course of the following June there was ushered into
my studio a gentleman whom I had not yet seen but with whom I had
been very briefly in correspondence. A letter from him had
expressed to me some days before his regret on learning that my
splendid portraitof Miss Flora Louisa Sauntwhose full name
figured by her own wish in the catalogue of the exhibition of the
Academyhad found a purchaser before the close of the private
view. He took the liberty of inquiring whether I might have at his
service some other memorial of the same lovely headsome
preliminary sketchsome study for the picture. I had replied that
I had indeed painted Miss Saunt more than once and that if he were
interested in my work I should be happy to show him what I had
done. Mr. Geoffrey Dawlingthe person thus introduced to me
stumbled into my room with awkward movements and equivocal sounds-a
longleanconfusedconfusing young manwith a bad complexion
and large protrusive teeth. He bore in its most indelible pressure
the postmarkas it wereof Oxfordand as soon as he opened his
mouth I perceivedin addition to a remarkable revelation of gums
that the text of the queer communication matched the registered
envelope. He was full of refinements and anglesof dreary and
distinguished knowledge. Of his unconscious drollery his dress
freely partook; it seemedfrom the gold ring into which his red
necktie was passed to the square toe-caps of his bootsto conform
with a high sense of modernness to the fashion before the last.
There were moments when his overdone urbanityall suggestive
stammers and interrogative quaversmade him scarcely intelligible;
but I felt him to be a gentleman and I liked the honesty of his
errand and the expression of his good green eyes.
As a worshipper at the shrine of beautyhoweverhe needed
explainingespecially when I found he had no acquaintance with my
brilliant model; had on the mere evidence of my picture takenas
he saida tremendous fancy to her looks. I ought doubtless to
have been humiliated by the simplicity of his judgment of thema
judgment for which the rendering was lost in the subjectquite
leaving out the element of art. He was like the innocent reader
for whom the story is "really true" and the author a negligible
quantity. He had come to me only because he wanted to purchase
and I remember being so amused at his attitudewhich I had never
seen equally marked in a person of educationthat I asked him why
for the sort of enjoyment he desiredit wouldn't be more to the
point to deal directly with the lady. He stared and blushed at
this; the idea clearly alarmed him. He was an extraordinary case-personally
so modest that I could see it had never occurred to him.
He had fallen in love with a painted sign and seemed content just
to dream of what it stood for. He was the young prince in the
legend or the comedy who loses his heart to the miniature of the
princess beyond seas. Until I knew him better this puzzled me
much--the link was so missing between his sensibility and his type.
He was of course bewildered by my sketcheswhich implied in the
beholder some sense of intention and quality; but for one of them
a comparative failurehe ended by conceiving a preference so
arbitrary and so lively thattaking no second look at the others
he expressed his wish to possess it and fell into the extremity of
confusion over the question of price. I helped him over that
stileand he went off without having asked me a direct question
about Miss Sauntyet with his acquisition under his arm. His
delicacy was such that he evidently considered his rights to be
limited; he had acquired none at all in regard to the original of
the picture. There were others--for I was curious about him--that
I wanted him to feel I conceded: I should have been glad of his
carrying away a sense of ground acquired for coming back. To
ensure this I had probably only to invite himand I perfectly
recall the impulse that made me forbear. It operated suddenly from
within while he hung about the door and in spite of the diffident
appeal that blinked in his gentle grin. If he was smitten with
Flora's ghost what mightn't be the direct force of the luminary
that could cast such a shadow? This source of radianceflooding
my poor placemight very well happen to be present the next time
he should turn up. The idea was sharp within me that there were
relations and complications it was no mission of mine to bring
about. If they were to develop they should develop in their very
Let me say at once that they did develop and that I perhaps after
all had something to do with it. If Mr. Dawling had departed
without a fresh appointment he was to reappear six months later
under protection no less powerful than that of our young lady
herself. I had seen her repeatedly for months: she had grown to
regard my studio as the temple of her beauty. This miracle was
recorded and celebrated there as nowhere else; in other places
there was occasional reference to other subjects of remark. The
degree of her presumption continued to be stupefying; there was
nothing so extraordinary save the degree in which she never paid
for it. She was kept innocentthat is she was kept safeby her
egotismbut she was helped alsothough she had now put off her
mourningby the attitude of the lone orphan who had to be a law
unto herself. It was as a lone orphan that she came and wentas a
lone orphan that she was the centre of a crush. The neglect of the
Hammond Synges gave relief to this characterand she made it worth
their while to beas every one saidtoo shocking. Lord Iffield
had gone to India to shoot tigersbut he returned in time for the
punctual private view: it was he who had snapped upas Flora
called itthe gem of the exhibition. My hope for the girl's
future had slipped ignominiously off his backbut after his
purchase of the portrait I tried to cultivate a new faith. The
girl's own faith was wonderful. It couldn't however be contagious:
too great was the limit of her sense of what painters call values.
Her colours were laid on like blankets on a cold night. How indeed
could a person speak the truth who was always posturing and
bragging? She was after all vulgar enoughand by the time I had
mastered her profile and could almost with my eyes shut do it in a
single line I was decidedly tired of its "purity which affected
me at last as inane. One moved with her, moreover, among phenomena
mismated and unrelated; nothing in her talk ever matched anything
out of it. Lord Iffield was dying of love for her, but his family
was leading him a life. His mother, horrid woman, had told some
one that she would rather he should be swallowed by a tiger than
marry a girl not absolutely one of themselves. He had given his
young friend unmistakable signs, but was lying low, gaining time:
it was in his father's power to be, both in personal and in
pecuniary ways, excessively nasty to him. His father wouldn't last
for ever--quite the contrary; and he knew how thoroughly, in spite
of her youth, her beauty and the swarm of her admirers, some of
them positively threatening in their passion, he could trust her to
hold out. There were richer, cleverer men, there were greater
personages too, but she liked her little viscount" just as he was
and liked to think thatbullied and persecutedhe had her there
so gratefully to rest upon. She came back to me with tale upon
taleand it all might be or mightn't. I never met my pretty model
in the world--she movedit appearedin exalted circles--and could
only admirein her wealth of illustrationthe grandeur of her
life and the freedom of her hand.
I had on the first opportunity spoken to her of Geoffrey Dawling
and she had listened to my story so far as she had the art of such
patienceasking me indeed more questions about him than I could
answer; then she had capped my anecdote with others much more
strikingthe disclosure of effects produced in the most
extraordinary quarters: on people who had followed her into
railway carriages; guards and porters even who had literally stuck
there; others who had spoken to her in shops and hung about her
house door; cabmenupon her honourin Londonwhoto gaze their
fill at herhad found excuses to thrust their petrifaction through
the very glasses of four-wheelers. She lost herself in these
reminiscencesthe moral of which was that poor Mr. Dawling was
only one of a million. When therefore the next autumn she
flourished into my studio with her odd companion at her heels her
first care was to make clear to me that if he was now in servitude
it wasn't because she had run after him. Dawling explained with a
hundred grins that when one wished very much to get anything one
usually ended by doing so--a proposition which led me wholly to
dissent and our young lady to asseverate that she hadn't in the
least wished to get Mr. Dawling. She mightn't have wished to get
himbut she wished to show himand I seemed to read that if she
could treat him as a trophy her affairs were rather at the ebb.
True there always hung from her belt a promiscuous fringe of
scalps. Much at any rate would have come and gone since our
separation in July. She had spent four months abroadwhereon
Swiss and Italian lakesin German citiesin the French capital
many accidents might have happened.
I had been again with my motherbut except Mrs. Meldrum and the
gleam of France had not found at Folkestone my old resources and
pastimes. Mrs. Meldrummuch edified by my report of the
performancesas she called themin my studiohad told me that to
her knowledge Flora would soon be on the straw: she had cut from
her capital such fine fat slices that there was almost nothing more
left to swallow. Perched on her breezy cliff the good lady dazzled
me as usual by her universal light: she knew so much more about
everything and everybody than I could ever squeeze out of my
colour-tubes. She knew that Flora was acting on system and
absolutely declined to be interfered with: her precious reasoning
was that her money would last as long as she should need itthat a
magnificent marriage would crown her charms before she should be
really pinched. She had a sum put by for a liberal outfit;
meanwhile the proper use of the rest was to decorate her for the
approaches to the altarkeep her afloat in the society in which
she would most naturally meet her match. Lord Iffield had been
seen with her at Lucerneat Cadenabbia; but it was Mrs. Meldrum's
conviction that nothing was to be expected of him but the most
futile flirtation. The girl had a certain hold of himbut with a
great deal of swagger he hadn't the spirit of a sheep: he was in
fear of his father and would never commit himself in Lord
Considine's lifetime. The most Flora might achieve was that he
wouldn't marry some one else. Geoffrey Dawlingto Mrs. Meldrum's
knowledge (I had told her of the young man's visit) had attached
himself on the way back from Italy to the Hammond Synge group. My
informant was in a position to be definite about this dangler; she
knew about his people; she had heard of him before. Hadn't he been
a friend of one of her nephews at Oxford? Hadn't he spent the
Christmas holidays precisely three years before at her brother-inlaw's
in Yorkshiretaking that occasion to get himself refused
with derision by wilful Bettythe second daughter of the house?
Her sisterwho liked the floundering youthhad written to her to
complain of Bettyand that the young man should now turn up as an
appendage of Flora's was one of those oft-cited proofs that the
world is small and that there are not enough people to go round.
His father had been something or other in the Treasury; his
grandfather on the mother's side had been something or other in the
Church. He had come into the paternal estatetwo or three
thousand a year in Hampshire; but he had let the place
advantageously and was generous to four plain sisters who lived at
Bournemouth and adored him. The family was hideous all roundbut
the very salt of the earth. He was supposed to be unspeakably
clever; he was fond of Londonfond of booksof intellectual
society and of the idea of a political career. That such a man
should be at the same time fond of Flora Saunt attestedas the
phrase in the first volume of Gibbon has itthe variety of his
inclinations. I was soon to learn that he was fonder of her than
of all the other things together. Bettyone of five and with
views above her stationwas at any rate felt at home to have
dished herself by her perversity. Of course no one had looked at
her since and no one would ever look at her again. It would be
eminently desirable that Flora should learn the lesson of Betty's
I was not struckI confesswith all this in my mindby any
symptom on our young lady's part of that sort of meditation. The
one moral she saw in anything was that of her incomparable aspect
which Mr. Dawlingsmitten even like the railway porters and the
cabmen by the doom-dealing godshad followed from London to Venice
and from Venice back to London again. I afterwards learned that
her version of this episode was profusely inexact: his personal
acquaintance with her had been determined by an accident remarkable
enoughI admitin connexion with what had gone before--a
coincidence at all events superficially striking. At Munich
returning from a tour in the Tyrol with two of his sistershe had
found himself at the table d'hote of his inn opposite to the full
presentment of that face of which the mere clumsy copy had made him
dream and desire. He had been tossed by it to a height so
vertiginous as to involve a retreat from the board; but the next
day he had dropped with a resounding thud at the very feet of his
apparition. On the followingwith an equal incoherencea
sacrifice even of his bewildered sisterswhom he left behindhe
made an heroic effort to escape by flight from a fate of which he
had already felt the cold breath. That fatein Londonvery
little laterdrove him straight before it--drove him one Sunday
afternoonin the rainto the door of the Hammond Synges. He
marched in other words close up to the cannon that was to blow him
to pieces. But three weekswhen he reappeared to mehad elapsed
since thenyet (to vary my metaphor) the burden he was to carry
for the rest of his days was firmly lashed to his back. I don't
mean by this that Flora had been persuaded to contract her scope; I
mean that he had been treated to the unconditional snub whichas
the event was to showcouldn't have been bettered as a means of
securing him. She hadn't calculatedbut she had said "Never!" and
that word had made a bed big enough for his long-legged patience.
He became from this moment to my mind the interesting figure in the
Now that he had acted without my aid I was free to show him this
and having on his own side something to show me he repeatedly
knocked at my door. What he brought with him on these occasions
was a simplicity so huge thatas I turn my ear to the pastI seem
even now to hear it bumping up and down my stairs. That was really
what I saw of him in the light of his behaviour. He had fallen in
love as he might have broken his legand the fracture was of a
sort that would make him permanently lame. It was the whole man
who limped and lurchedwith nothing of him left in the same
position as before. The tremendous clevernessthe literary
societythe political ambitionthe Bournemouth sisters all seemed
to flop with his every movement a little nearer to the floor. I
hadn't had an Oxford training and I had never encountered the great
man at whose feet poor Dawling had most submissively sat and who
had addressed him his most destructive sniffs; but I remember
asking myself how effectively this privilege had supposed itself to
prepare him for the career on which my friend appeared now to have
embarked. I remember too making up my mind about the cleverness
which had its uses and I suppose in impenetrable shades even its
criticsbut from which the friction of mere personal intercourse
was not the sort of process to extract a revealing spark. He
accepted without a question both his fever and his chilland the
only thing he touched with judgment was this convenience of my
friendship. He doubtless told me his simple storybut the matter
comes back in a kind of sense of my being rather the mouthpieceof
my having had to put it together for him. He took it from me in
this form without a groanand I gave it him quite as it came; he
took it again and againspending his odd half-hours with me as if
for the very purpose of learning how idiotically he was in love.
He told me I made him see things: to begin withhadn't I first
made him see Flora Saunt? I wanted him to give her up and lucidly
informed him why; on which he never protested nor contradicted
never was even so alembicated as to declare just for the sake of
the point that he wouldn't. He simply and pointlessly didn'tand
when at the end of three months I asked him what was the use of
talking with such a fellow his nearest approach to a justification
was to say that what made him want to help her was just the
deficiencies I dwelt on. I could only reply without gross
developments: "Oh if you're as sorry for her as that!" I too was
nearly as sorry for her as thatbut it only led me to be sorrier
still for other victims of this compassion. With Dawling as with
me the compassion was at first in excess of any visible motive; so
that when eventually the motive was supplied each could to a
certain extent compliment the other on the fineness of his
After he had begun to haunt my studio Miss Saunt quite gave it up
and I finally learned that she accused me of conspiring with him to
put pressure on her to marry him. She didn't know I would take it
that wayelse she would never have brought him to see me. It was
in her view a part of the conspiracy that to show him a kindness I
asked him at last to sit to me. I dare say moreover she was
disgusted to hear that I had ended by attempting almost as many
sketches of his beauty as I had attempted of hers. What was the
value of tributes to beauty by a hand that could so abase itself?
My relation to poor Dawling's want of modelling was simple enough.
I was really digging in that sandy desert for the buried treasure
of his soul.
It befell at this periodjust before Christmasthat on my having
gone under pressure of the season into a great shop to buy a toy or
twomy eyes fleeing from superfluitylighted at a distance on the
bright concretion of Flora Sauntan exhibitability that held its
own even against the most plausible pinkness of the most developed
dolls. A huge quarter of the placethe biggest bazaar "on earth
was peopled with these and other effigies and fantasies, as well as
with purchasers and vendors haggard alike, in the blaze of the gas,
with hesitations. I was just about to appeal to Flora to avert
that stage of my errand when I saw that she was accompanied by a
gentleman whose identity, though more than a year had elapsed, came
back to me from the Folkestone cliff. It had been associated on
that scene with showy knickerbockers; at present it overflowed more
splendidly into a fur-trimmed overcoat. Lord Iffield's presence
made me waver an instant before crossing over, and during that
instant Flora, blank and undistinguishing, as if she too were after
all weary of alternatives, looked straight across at me. I was on
the point of raising my hat to her when I observed that her face
gave no sign. I was exactly in the line of her vision, but she
either didn't see me or didn't recognise me, or else had a reason
to pretend she didn't. Was her reason that I had displeased her
and that she wished to punish me? I had always thought it one of
her merits that she wasn't vindictive. She at any rate simply
looked away; and at this moment one of the shop-girls, who had
apparently gone off in search of it, bustled up to her with a small
mechanical toy. It so happened that I followed closely what then
took place, afterwards recognising that I had been led to do so,
led even through the crowd to press nearer for the purpose, by an
impression of which in the act I was not fully conscious.
Flora with the toy in her hand looked round at her companion; then
seeing his attention had been solicited in another quarter she
moved away with the shop-girl, who had evidently offered to conduct
her into the presence of more objects of the same sort. When she
reached the indicated spot I was in a position still to observe
her. She had asked some question about the working of the toy, and
the girl, taking it herself, began to explain the little secret.
Flora bent her head over it, but she clearly didn't understand. I
saw her, in a manner that quickened my curiosity, give a glance
back at the place from which she had come. Lord Iffield was
talking with another young person; she satisfied herself of this by
the aid of a question addressed to her own attendant. She then
drew closer to the table near which she stood and, turning her back
to me, bent her head lower over the collection of toys and more
particularly over the small object the girl had attempted to
explain. She took it again and, after a moment, with her face well
averted, made an odd motion of her arms and a significant little
duck of her head. These slight signs, singular as it may appear,
produced in my bosom an agitation so great that I failed to notice
Lord Iffield's whereabouts. He had rejoined her; he was close upon
her before I knew it or before she knew it herself. I felt at that
instant the strangest of all promptings: if it could have operated
more rapidly it would have caused me to dash between them in some
such manner as to give Flora a caution. In fact as it was I think
I could have done this in time had I not been checked by a
curiosity stronger still than my impulse. There were three seconds
during which I saw the young man and yet let him come on. Didn't I
make the quick calculation that if he didn't catch what Flora was
doing I too might perhaps not catch it? She at any rate herself
took the alarm. On perceiving her companion's nearness she made,
still averted, another duck of her head and a shuffle of her hands
so precipitate that a little tin steamboat she had been holding
escaped from them and rattled down to the floor with a sharpness
that I hear at this hour. Lord Iffield had already seized her arm;
with a violent jerk he brought her round toward him. Then it was
that there met my eyes a quite distressing sight: this exquisite
creature, blushing, glaring, exposed, with a pair of big blackrimmed
eye-glasses, defacing her by their position, crookedly
astride of her beautiful nose. She made a grab at them with her
free hand while I turned confusedly away.
I don't remember how soon it was I spoke to Geoffrey Dawling; his
sittings were irregular, but it was certainly the very next time he
gave me one.
Has any rumour ever reached you of Miss Saunt's having anything
the matter with her eyes?" He stared with a candour that was a
sufficient answer to my questionbacking it up with a shocked and
mystified "Never!" Then I asked him if he had observed in her any
symptomhowever disguisedof embarrassed sight; on whichafter a
moment's thoughthe exclaimed "Disguised?" as if my use of that
word had vaguely awakened a train. "She's not a bit myopic he
said; she doesn't blink or contract her lids." I fully recognised
this and I mentioned that she altogether denied the impeachment;
owing it to him moreover to explain the ground of my inquiryI
gave him a sketch of the incident that had taken place before me at
the shop. He knew all about Lord Iffield; that nobleman had
figured freely in our conversation as his preferredhis injurious
rival. Poor Dawling's contention was that if there had been a
definite engagement between his lordship and the young ladythe
sort of thing that was announced in the Morning Postrenunciation
and retirement would be comparatively easy to him; but that having
waited in vain for any such assurance he was entitled to act as if
the door were not really closed or were at any rate not cruelly
locked. He was naturally much struck with my anecdote and still
more with my interpretation of it.
There IS something, there IS something--possibly something very
grave, certainly something that requires she should make use of
artificial aids. She won't admit it publicly, because with her
idolatry of her beauty, the feeling she is all made up of, she sees
in such aids nothing but the humiliation and the disfigurement.
She has used them in secret, but that is evidently not enough, for
the affection she suffers from, apparently some definite menace,
has lately grown much worse. She looked straight at me in the
shop, which was violently lighted, without seeing it was I. At the
same distance, at Folkestone, where as you know I first met her,
where I heard this mystery hinted at and where she indignantly
denied the thing, she appeared easily enough to recognise people.
At present she couldn't really make out anything the shop-girl
showed her. She has successfully concealed from the man I saw her
with that she resorts in private to a pince-nez and that she does
so not only under the strictest orders from her oculist, but
because literally the poor thing can't accomplish without such help
half the business of life. Iffield however has suspected
something, and his suspicions, whether expressed or kept to
himself, have put him on the watch. I happened to have a glimpse
of the movement at which he pounced on her and caught her in the
I had thought it all out; my idea explained many thingsand
Dawling turned pale as he listened to me.
Was he rough with her?he anxiously asked.
How can I tell what passed between them? I fled from the place.
My companion stared. "Do you mean to say her eyesight's going?"
Heaven forbid! In that case how could she take life as she does?
How DOES she take life? That's the question!He sat there
bewilderedly brooding; the tears rose to his lids; they reminded me
of those I had seen in Flora's the day I risked my enquiry. The
question he had asked was one that to my own satisfaction I was
ready to answerbut I hesitated to let him hear as yet all that my
reflections had suggested. I was indeed privately astonished at
their ingenuity. For the present I only rejoined that it struck me
she was playing a particular game; at which he went on as if he
hadn't heard mesuddenly haunted with a fearlost in the dark
possibility. "Do you mean there's a danger of anything very bad?"
My dear fellow, you must ask her special adviser.
Who in the world is her special adviser?
I haven't a conception. But we mustn't get too excited. My
impression would be that she has only to observe a few ordinary
rules, to exercise a little common sense.
Dawling jumped at this. "I see--to stick to the pince-nez."
To follow to the letter her oculist's prescription, whatever it is
and at whatever cost to her prettiness. It's not a thing to be
Upon my honour it SHAN'T be!he roundly declared; and he adjusted
himself to his position again as if we had quite settled the
business. After a considerable intervalwhile I botched awayhe
suddenly said: "Did they make a great difference?"
A great difference?
Those things she had put on.
Oh the glasses--in her beauty? She looked queer of course, but it
was partly because one was unaccustomed. There are women who look
charming in nippers. What, at any rate, if she does look queer?
She must be mad not to accept that alternative.
She IS mad,said Geoffrey Dawling.
Mad to refuse you, I grant. Besides,I went onthe pince-nez,
which was a large and peculiar one, was all awry: she had half
pulled it off, but it continued to stick, and she was crimson, she
It must have been horrible!my companion groaned.
It WAS horrible. But it's still more horrible to defy all
warnings; it's still more horrible to be landed in--Without
saying in what I disgustedly shrugged my shoulders.
After a glance at me Dawling jerked round. "Then you do believe
that she may be?"
I hesitated. "The thing would be to make HER believe it. She only
needs a good scare."
But if that fellow is shocked at the precautions she does take?
Oh who knows?I rejoined with small sincerity. "I don't suppose
Iffield is absolutely a brute."
I would take her with leather blinders, like a shying mare!cried
I had an impression that Iffield wouldn'tbut I didn't communicate
itfor I wanted to pacify my friendwhom I had discomposed too
much for the purposes of my sitting. I recollect that I did some
good work that morningbut it also comes back to me that before we
separated he had practically revealed to me that my anecdote
connecting itself in his mind with a series of observations at the
time unconscious and unregisteredhad covered with light the
subject of our colloquy. He had had a formless perception of some
secret that drove Miss Saunt to subterfugesand the more he
thought of it the more he guessed this secret to be the practice of
making believe she saw when she didn't and of cleverly keeping
people from finding out how little she saw. When one pieced things
together it was astonishing what ground they covered. Just as he
was going away he asked me from what source at Folkestone the
horrid tale had proceeded. When I had given himas I saw no
reason not to dothe name of Mrs. Meldrum he exclaimed: "Oh I
know all about her; she's a friend of some friends of mine!" At
this I remembered wilful Betty and said to myself that I knew some
one who would probably prove more wilful still.
A few days later I again heard Dawling on my stairsand even
before he passed my threshold I knew he had something to tell.
I've been down to Folkestone--it was necessary I should see her!
I forget whether he had come straight from the station; he was at
any rate out of breath with his newswhich it took me however a
minute to apply.
You mean that you've been with Mrs. Meldrum?
Yes, to ask her what she knows and how she comes to know it. It
worked upon me awfully--I mean what you told me.He made a
visible effort to seem quieter than he wasand it showed me
sufficiently that he had not been reassured. I laidto comfort
him and smiling at a venturea friendly hand on his armand he
dropped into my eyesfixing them an instanta strange distended
look which might have expressed the cold clearness of all that was
to come. "I KNOW--now!" he said with an emphasis he rarely used.
What then did Mrs. Meldrum tell you?
Only one thing that signified, for she has no real knowledge. But
that one thing was everything.
What is it then?
Why, that she can't bear the sight of her.His pronouns required
some arrangingbut after I had successfully dealt with them I
replied that I was quite aware of Miss Saunt's trick of turning her
back on the good lady of Folkestone. Only what did that prove?
Have you never guessed? I guessed as soon as she spoke!Dawling
towered over me in dismal triumph. It was the first time in our
acquaintance thaton any ground of understanding this had
occurred; but even so remarkable an incident still left me
sufficiently at sea to cause him to continue: "Whythe effect of
I seemed to catch the tail of his idea. "Mrs. Meldrum's?"
They're so awfully ugly and they add so to the dear woman's
ugliness.This remark began to flash a lightand when he quickly
added "She sees herselfshe sees her own fate!" my response was so
immediate that I had almost taken the words out of his mouth.
While I tried to fix this sudden image of Flora's face glazed in
and cross-barred even as Mrs. Meldrum's was glazed and barredhe
went on to assert that only the horror of that imagelooming out
at herselfcould be the reason of her avoiding the person who so
forced it home. The fact he had encountered made everything
hideously vividand more vivid than anything else that just such
another pair of goggles was what would have been prescribed to
I see--I see,I presently returned. "What would become of Lord
Iffield if she were suddenly to come out in them? What indeed
would become of every onewhat would become of everything?" This
was an enquiry that Dawling was evidently unprepared to meetand I
completed it by saying at last: "My dear fellowfor that matter
what would become of YOU?"
Once more he turned on me his good green eyes. "Oh I shouldn't
The tone of his words somehow made his ugly face beautifuland I
discovered at this moment how much I really liked him. None the
lessat the same timeperversely and rudelyI felt the droll
side of our discussion of such alternatives. It made me laugh out
and say to him while I laughed: "You'd take her even with those
things of Mrs. Meldrum's?"
He remained mournfully grave; I could see that he was surprised at
my rude mirth. But he summoned back a vision of the lady at
Folkestone and conscientiously replied: "Even with those things of
Mrs. Meldrum's." I begged him not to resent my laughterwhich but
exposed the fact that we had built a monstrous castle in the air.
Didn't he see on what flimsy ground the structure rested? The
evidence was preposterously small. He believed the worstbut we
were really uninformed.
I shall find out the truth,he promptly replied.
How can you? If you question her you'll simply drive her to
perjure herself. Wherein after all does it concern you to know the
truth? It's the girl's own affair.
Then why did you tell me your story?
I was a trifle embarrassed. "To warn you off I smiled. He took
no more notice of these words than presently to remark that Lord
Iffield had no serious intentions. Very possibly I said. But
you mustn't speak as if Lord Iffield and you were her only
Dawling thought a moment. "Couldn't something be got out of the
people she has consulted? She must have been to people. How else
can she have been condemned?"
Condemned to what? Condemned to perpetual nippers? Of course she
has consulted some of the big specialists, but she has done it, you
may be sure, in the most clandestine manner; and even if it were
supposable that they would tell you anything--which I altogether
doubt--you would have great difficulty in finding out which men
they are. Therefore leave it alone; never show her what you
I even before he quitted me asked him to promise me this. "All
rightI promise"--but he was gloomy enough. He was a lover facing
the fact that there was no limit to the deceit his loved one was
ready to practise: it made so remarkably little difference. I
could see by what a stretch his passionate pity would from this
moment overlook the girl's fatuity and folly. She was always
accessible to him--that I knew; for if she had told him he was an
idiot to dream she could dream of himshe would have rebuked the
imputation of having failed to make it clear that she would always
be glad to regard him as a friend. What were most of her friends-what
were all of them--but repudiated idiots? I was perfectly
aware that in her conversations and confidences I myself for
instance had a niche in the gallery. As regards poor Dawling I
knew how often he still called on the Hammond Synges. It was not
there but under the wing of the Floyd-Taylors that her intimacy
with Lord Iffield most flourished. At all eventswhen a week
after the visit I have just summarised Flora's name was one morning
brought up to meI jumped at the conclusion that Dawling had been
with herand even I fear briefly entertained the thought that he
had broken his word.
She left meafter she had been introducedin no suspense about
her present motive; she was on the contrary in a visible fever to
enlighten me; but I promptly learned that for the alarm with which
she pitiably panted our young man was not accountable. She had but
one thought in the worldand that thought was for Lord Iffield. I
had the strangest saddest scene with herand if it did me no other
good it at least made me at last completely understand why
insidiouslyfrom the firstshe had struck me as a creature of
tragedy. In showing me the whole of her folly it lifted the
curtain of her misery. I don't know how much she meant to tell me
when she came--I think she had had plans of elaborate
misrepresentation; at any rate she found it at the end of ten
minutes the simplest way to break down and sobto be wretched and
true. When she had once begun to let herself go the movement took
her off her feet; the relief of it was like the cessation of a
cramp. She shared in a word her long secretshe shifted her sharp
pain. She broughtI confesstears to my own eyestears of
helpless tenderness for her helpless poverty. Her visit however
was not quite so memorable in itself as in some of its
consequencesthe most immediate of which was that I went that
afternoon to see Geoffrey Dawlingwho had in those days rooms in
Welbeck Streetwhere I presented myself at an hour late enough to
warrant the supposition that he might have come in. He had not
come inbut he was expectedand I was invited to enter and wait
for him: a ladyI was informedwas already in his sitting-room.
I hesitateda little at a loss: it had wildly coursed through my
brain that the lady was perhaps Flora Saunt. But when I asked if
she were young and remarkably pretty I received so significant a
No sir!that I risked an advance and after a minute in this
manner found myselfto my astonishmentface to face with Mrs.
Oh you dear thing,she exclaimedI'm delighted to see you: you
spare me another compromising demarche! But for this I should have
called on you also. Know the worst at once: if you see me here
it's at least deliberate--it's planned, plotted, shameless. I came
up on purpose to see him, upon my word I'm in love with him. Why,
if you valued my peace of mind, did you let him the other day at
Folkestone dawn upon my delighted eyes? I found myself there in
half an hour simply infatuated with him. With a perfect sense of
everything that can be urged against him I hold him none the less
the very pearl of men. However, I haven't come up to declare my
passion--I've come to bring him news that will interest him much
more. Above all I've come to urge upon him to be careful.
About Flora Saunt?
About what he says and does: he must be as still as a mouse!
She's at last really engaged.
But it's a tremendous secret?I was moved to mirth.
Precisely: she wired me this noon, and spent another shilling to
tell me that not a creature in the world is yet to know it.
She had better have spent it to tell you that she had just passed
an hour with the creature you see before you.
She has just passed an hour with every one in the place!Mrs.
Meldrum cried. "They've vital reasonsshe saysfor it's not
coming out for a month. Then it will be formally announcedbut
meanwhile her rejoicing is wild. I daresay Mr. Dawling already
knows andas it's nearly seven o'clockmay have jumped off London
Bridge. But an effect of the talk I had with him the other day was
to make meon receipt of my telegramfeel it to be my duty to
warn him in person against taking actionso to call iton the
horrid certitude which I could see he carried away with him. I had
added somehow to that certitude. He told me what you had told him
you had seen in your shop."
Mrs. MeldrumI perceivedhad come to Welbeck Street on an errand
identical with my own--a circumstance indicating her rare sagacity
inasmuch as her ground for undertaking it was a very different
thing from what Flora's wonderful visit had made of mine. I
remarked to her that what I had seen in the shop was sufficiently
strikingbut that I had seen a great deal more that morning in my
studio. "In short I said, I've seen everything."
She was mystified. "Everything?"
The poor creature is under the darkest of clouds. Oh she came to
triumph, but she remained to talk something in the nature of sense!
She put herself completely in my hands--she does me the honour to
intimate that of all her friends I'm the most disinterested. After
she had announced to me that Lord Iffield was utterly committed to
her and that for the present I was absolutely the only person in
the secret, she arrived at her real business. She had had a
suspicion of me ever since that day at Folkestone when I asked her
for the truth about her eyes. The truth is what you and I both
guessed. She's in very bad danger.
But from what cause? I, who by God's mercy have kept mine, know
everything that can be known about eyes,said Mrs. Meldrum.
She might have kept hers if she had profited by God's mercy, if
she had done in time, done years ago, what was imperatively ordered
her; if she hadn't in fine been cursed with the loveliness that was
to make her behaviour a thing of fable. She may still keep her
sight, or what remains of it, if she'll sacrifice--and after all so
little--that purely superficial charm. She must do as you've done;
she must wear, dear lady, what you wear!
What my companion wore glittered for the moment like a melon-frame
in August. "Heaven forgive her--now I understand!" She flushed
But I wasn't afraid of the effect on her good nature of her thus
seeingthrough her great goggleswhy it had always been that
Flora held her at such a distance. "I can't tell you I said,
from what special affectionwhat state of the eyeher danger
proceeds: that's the one thing she succeeded this morning in
keeping from me. She knows it herself perfectly; she has had the
best advice in Europe. 'It's a thing that's awfulsimply awful'-that
was the only account she would give me. Year before last
while she was at Boulogneshe went for three days with Mrs. Floyd-
Taylor to Paris. She there surreptitiously consulted the greatest
man--even Mrs. Floyd-Taylor doesn't know. Last autumn in Germany
she did the same. 'First put on certain special spectacles with a
straight bar in the middle: then we'll talk'--that's practically
what they say. What SHE says is that she'll put on anything in
nature when she's marriedbut that she must get married first.
She has always meant to do everything as soon as she's married.
Then and then only she'll be safe. How will any one ever look at
her if she makes herself a fright? How could she ever have got
engaged if she had made herself a fright from the first? It's no
use to insist that with her beauty she can never BE a fright. She
said to me this morningpoor girlthe most characteristicthe
most harrowing things. 'My face is all I have--and SUCH a face! I
knew from the first I could do anything with it. But I needed it
all--I need it stillevery exquisite inch of it. It isn't as if I
had a figure or anything else. Oh if God had only given me a
figure tooI don't say! Yeswith a figurea really good one
like Fanny Floyd-Taylor'swho's hideousI'd have risked plain
glasses. Que voulez-vous? No one is perfect.' She says she still
has money leftbut I don't believe a word of it. She has been
speculating on her impunityon the idea that her danger would hold
off: she has literally been running a race with it. Her theory
has beenas you from the first so clearly sawthat she'd get in
ahead. She swears to me that though the 'bar' is too cruel she
wears when she's alone what she has been ordered to wear. But when
the deuce is she alone? It's herself of course that she has
swindled worst: she has put herself offso insanely that even her
conceit but half accounts for itwith little inadequate
concessionslittle false measures and preposterous evasions and
childish hopes. Her great terror is now that Iffieldwho already
has suspicionswho has found out her pince-nez but whom she has
beguiled with some unblushing hocus-pocusmay discover the
dreadful facts; and the essence of what she wanted this morning was
in that interest to square meto get me to deny indignantly and
authoritatively (for isn't she my 'favourite sitter?') that she has
anything in life the matter with any part of her. She sobbedshe
'went on' she entreated; after we got talking her extraordinary
nerve left her and she showed me what she has been through--showed
me also all her terror of the harm I could do her. 'Wait till I'm
married! wait till I'm married!' She took hold of meshe almost
sank on her knees. It seems to me highly immoralone's
participation in her fraud; but there's no doubt that she must be
married: I don't know what I don't see behind it! Therefore I
wound up, Dawling must keep his hands off."
Mrs. Meldrum had held her breath; she gave out a long moan. "Well
that's exactly what I came here to tell him."
Then here he is.Our hostall unpreparedhis latchkey still in
his handhad just pushed open the door andstartled at finding
usturned a frightened look from one to the otherwondering what
disaster we were there to announce or avert.
Mrs. Meldrum was on the spot all gaiety. "I've come to return your
sweet visit. Ah she laughed, I mean to keep up the
Do--do,he murmured mechanically and absentlycontinuing to look
at us. Then he broke out: "He's going to marry her."
I was surprised. "You already know?"
He produced an evening paperwhich he tossed down on the table.
It's in that.
Published--already?I was still more surprised.
Oh Flora can't keep a secret!--Mrs. Meldrum made it light. She
went up to poor Dawling and laid a motherly hand upon him.
It's all right--it's just as it ought to be: don't think about
her ever any more.Then as he met this adjuration with a stare
from which thoughtand of the most defiant and dismalfairly
protrudedthe excellent woman put up her funny face and tenderly
kissed him on the cheek.
I have spoken of these reminiscences as of a row of coloured beads
and I confess that as I continue to straighten out my chaplet I am
rather proud of the comparison. The beads are all thereas I
said--they slip along the string in their small smooth roundness.
Geoffrey Dawling accepted as a gentleman the event his evening
paper had proclaimed; in view of which I snatched a moment to nudge
him a hint that he might offer Mrs. Meldrum his hand. He returned
me a heavy head-shakeand I judged that marriage would henceforth
strike him very much as the traffic of the street may strike some
poor incurable at the window of an hospital. Circumstances arising
at this time led to my making an absence from Englandand
circumstances already existing offered him a firm basis for similar
action. He had after all the usual resource of a Briton--he could
take to his boatsalways drawn up in our background. He started
on a journey round the globeand I was left with nothing but my
inference as to what might have happened. Later observation
however only confirmed my belief that if at any time during the
couple of months after Flora Saunt's brilliant engagement he had
made upas they sayto the good lady of Folkestonethat good
lady would not have pushed him over the cliff. Strange as she was
to behold I knew of cases in which she had been obliged to
administer that shove. I went to New York to paint a couple of
portraits; but I foundonce on the spotthat I had counted
without Chicagowhere I was invited to blot out this harsh
discrimination by the production of some dozen. I spent a year in
America and should probably have spent a second had I not been
summoned back to England by alarming news from my mother. Her
strength had failedand as soon as I reached London I hurried down
to Folkestonearriving just at the moment to offer a welcome to
some slight symptom of a rally. She had been much worse but was
now a little better; and though I found nothing but satisfaction in
having come to her I saw after a few hours that my London studio
where arrears of work had already met mewould be my place to
await whatever might next occur. Yet before returning to town I
called on Mrs. Meldrumfrom whom I had not had a lineand my view
of whomwith the adjacent objectsas I had left themhad been
intercepted by a luxuriant foreground.
Before I had gained her house I met heras I supposedcoming
toward me across the downgreeting me from afar with the familiar
twinkle of her great vitreous badge; and as it was late in the
autumn and the esplanade a blank I was free to acknowledge this
signal by cutting a caper on the grass. My enthusiasm dropped
indeed the next momentfor I had seen in a few more seconds that
the person thus assaulted had by no means the figure of my military
friend. I felt a shock much greater than any I should have thought
possible when on this person's drawing near I knew her for poor
little Flora Saunt. At what moment she had recognised me belonged
to an order of mysteries over whichit quickly came home to me
one would never linger again: once we were face to face it so
chiefly mattered that I should succeed in looking entirely
unastonished. All I at first saw was the big gold bar crossing
each of her lensesover which something convex and grotesquelike
the eyes of a large insectsomething that now represented her
whole personalityseemedas out of the orifice of a prisonto
strain forward and press. The face had shrunk away: it looked
smallerappeared even to look plain; it was at all eventsso far
as the effect on a spectator was concernedwholly sacrificed to
this huge apparatus of sight. There was no smile in itand she
made no motion to take my offered hand.
I had no idea you were down here!I said and I wondered whether
she didn't know me at all or knew me only by my voice.
You thought I was Mrs. Meldrum,she ever so quietly answered.
It was just this low pitch that made me protest with laughter. "Oh
yesyou have a tremendous deal in common with Mrs. Meldrum! I've
just returned to England after a long absence and I'm on my way to
see her. Won't you come with me?" It struck me that her old
reason for keeping clear of our friend was well disposed of now.
I've just left her. I'm staying with her.She stood solemnly
fixing me with her goggles. "Would you like to paint me now?" she
asked. She seemed to speakwith intense gravityfrom behind a
mask or a cage.
There was nothing to do but treat the question still with high
spirits. "It would be a fascinating little artistic problem!"
That something was wrong it wasn't difficult to seebut a good
deal more than met the eye might be presumed to be wrong if Flora
was under Mrs. Meldrum's roof. I hadn't for a year had much time
to think of herbut my imagination had had ground for lodging her
in more gilded halls. One of the last things I had heard before
leaving England was that in commemoration of the new relationship
she had gone to stay with Lady Considine. This had made me take
everything else for grantedand the noisy American world had
deafened my care to possible contradictions. Her spectacles were
at present a direct contradiction; they seemed a negation not only
of new relationships but of every old one as well. I remember
nevertheless that when after a moment she walked beside me on the
grass I found myself nervously hoping she wouldn't as yet at any
rate tell me anything very dreadful; so that to stave off this
danger I harried her with questions about Mrs. Meldrum andwithout
waiting for repliesbecame profuse on the subject of my own
doings. My companion was finely silentand I felt both as if she
were watching my nervousness with a sort of sinister irony and as
if I were talking to some different and strange person. Flora
plain and obscure and dumb was no Flora at all. At Mrs. Meldrum's
door she turned off with the observation that as there was
certainly a great deal I should have to say to our friend she had
better not go in with me. I looked at her again--I had been
keeping my eyes away from her--but only to meet her magnified
stare. I greatly desired in truth to see Mrs. Meldrum alonebut
there was something so grim in the girl's trouble that I hesitated
to fall in with this idea of dropping her. Yet one couldn't
express a compassion without seeming to take for granted more
trouble than there actually might have been. I reflected that I
must really figure to her as a foolwhich was an entertainment I
had never expected to give her. It rolled over me there for the
first time--it has come back to me since--that there is
wondrouslyin very deep and even in very foolish misfortune a
dignity still finer than in the most inveterate habit of being all
right. I couldn't have to her the manner of treating it as a mere
detail that I was face to face with a part of whatat our last
meetingwe had had such a scene about; but while I was trying to
think of some manner that I COULD have she said quite colourlessly
though somehow as if she might never see me again: "Good-bye. I'm
going to take my walk."
She looked round the great bleak cliff-top. "With whom should I
go? Besides I like to be alone--for the present."
This gave me the glimmer of a vision that she regarded her
disfigurement as temporaryand the confidence came to me that she
would neverfor her happinesscease to be a creature of
illusions. It enabled me to exclaimsmiling brightly and feeling
indeed idiotic: "Oh I shall see you again! But I hope you'll have
a very pleasant walk."
All my walks are pleasant, thank you--they do me such a lot of
good.She was as quiet as a mouseand her words seemed to me
stupendous in their wisdom. "I take several a day she continued.
She might have been an ancient woman responding with humility at
the church door to the patronage of the parson. The more I take
the better I feel. I'm ordered by the doctors to keep all the
while in the air and go in for plenty of exercise. It keeps up my
general healthyou knowand if that goes on improving as it has
lately done everything will soon be all right. All that was the
matter with me before--and always; it was too reckless!--was that I
neglected my general health. It acts directly on the state of the
particular organ. So I'm going three miles."
I grinned at her from the doorstep while Mrs. Meldrum's maid stood
there to admit me. "Oh I'm so glad I said, looking at her as she
paced away with the pretty flutter she had kept and remembering the
day when, while she rejoined Lord Iffield, I had indulged in the
same observation. Her air of assurance was on this occasion not
less than it had been on that; but I recalled that she had then
struck me as marching off to her doom. Was she really now marching
away from it?
As soon as I saw Mrs. Meldrum I of course broke out. Is there
anything in it? IS her general health--?"
Mrs. Meldrum checked me with her great amused blare. "You've
already seen her and she has told you her wondrous tale? What's
'in it' is what has been in everything she has ever done--the most
comicaltragical belief in herself. She thinks she's doing a
And what does her husband think?
Her husband? What husband?
Hasn't she then married Lord Iffield?
Vous-en-etes le?cried my hostess. "Why he behaved like a
How should I know? You never wrote me.Mrs. Meldrum hesitated
covering me with what poor Flora called the particular organ. "No
I didn't write you--I abstained on purpose. If I kept quiet I
thought you mightn't hear over there what had happened. If you
should hear I was afraid you would stir up Mr. Dawling."
Stir him up?
Urge him to fly to the rescue; write out to him that there was
another chance for him.
I wouldn't have done it,I said.
Well,Mrs. Meldrum repliedit was not my business to give you
In short you were afraid of it.
Again she hesitated and though it may have been only my fancy I
thought she considerably reddened. At all events she laughed out.
Then "I was afraid of it!" she very honestly answered.
But doesn't he know? Has he given no sign?
Every sign in life--he came straight back to her. He did
everything to get her to listen to him, but she hasn't the smallest
idea of it.
Has he seen her as she is now?I presently and just a trifle
Indeed he has, and borne it like a hero. He told me all about
How much you've all been through!I found occasion to remark.
Then what has become of him?
He's at home in Hampshire. He has got back his old place and I
believe by this time his old sisters. It's not half a bad little
Yet its attractions say nothing to Flora?
Oh Flora's by no means on her back!my fried declared.
She's not on her back because she's on yours. Have you got her
for the rest of your life?
Once more Mrs. Meldrum genially glared. "Did she tell you how much
the Hammond Synges have kindly left her to live on? Not quite
eighty pounds a year."
That's a good deal, but it won't pay the oculist. What was it
that at last induced her to submit to him?
Her general collapse after that brute of an Iffield's rupture.
She cried her eyes out--she passed through a horror of black
darkness. Then came a gleam of light, and the light appears to
have broadened. She went into goggles as repentant Magdalens go
into the Catholic church.
In spite of which you don't think she'll be saved?
SHE thinks she will--that's all I can tell you. There's no doubt
that when once she brought herself to accept her real remedy, as
she calls it, she began to enjoy a relief that she had never known.
That feeling, very new and in spite of what she pays for it most
refreshing, has given her something to hold on by, begotten in her
foolish little mind a belief that, as she says, she's on the mend
and that in the course of time, if she leads a tremendously healthy
life, she'll be able to take off her muzzle and become as dangerous
again as ever. It keeps her going.
And what keeps you? You're good until the parties begin again.
Oh she doesn't object to me now!smiled Mrs. Meldrum. "I'm going
to take her abroad; we shall be a pretty pair." I was struck with
this energy and after a moment I enquired the reason of it. "It's
to divert her mind my friend replied, reddening again a little, I
thought. We shall go next week: I've only waited to see how your
mother would be before starting." I expressed to her hereupon my
sense of her extraordinary merit and also that of the
inconceivability of Flora's fancying herself still in a situation
not to jump at the chance of marrying a man like Dawling. "She
says he's too ugly; she says he's too dreary; she says in fact he's
'nobody'" Mrs. Meldrum pursued. "She says above all that he's not
'her own sort.' She doesn't deny that he's goodbut she finds him
impossibly ridiculous. He's quite the last person she would ever
dream of." I was almost disposed on hearing this to protest that
if the girl had so little proper feeling her noble suitor had
perhaps served her right; but after a while my curiosity as to just
how her noble suitor HAD served her got the better of that emotion
and I asked a question or two which led my companion again to apply
to him the invidious term I have already quoted. What had happened
was simply that Flora had at the eleventh hour broken down in the
attempt to put him off with an uncandid account of her infirmity
and that his lordship's interest in her had not been proof against
the discovery of the way she had practised on him. Her
dissimulationhe was obliged to perceivehad been infernally
deep. The future in short assumed a new complexion for him when
looked at through the grim glasses of a bride whoas he had said
to some onecouldn't reallywhen you came to find outsee her
hand before her face. He had conducted himself like any other
jockeyed customer--he had returned the animal as unsound. He had
backed out in his own waygiving the businessby some sharp
shufflesuch a turn as to make the rupture ostensibly Flora'sbut
he had none the less remorselessly and basely backed out. He had
cared for her lovely facecared for it in the amused and haunted
way it had been her poor little delusive gift to make men care; and
her lovely facedamn itwith the monstrous gear she had begun to
rig upon itwas just what had let him in. He had in the judgment
of his family done everything that could be expected of him; he had
made--Mrs. Meldrum had herself seen the letter--a "handsome" offer
of pecuniary compensation. Oh if Florawith her incredible
buoyancywas in a manner on her feet again now it was not that she
had not for weeks and weeks been prone in the dust. Strange were
the humiliationsthe forms of anguishit was given some natures
to survive. That Flora had survived was perhaps after all a proof
she was reserved for some final mercy. "But she has been in the
abysses at any rate said Mrs. Meldrum, and I really don't think
I can tell you what pulled her through."
I think I can tell YOU,I returned. "What in the world but Mrs.
At the end of an hour Flora had not come inand I was obliged to
announce that I should have but time to reach the stationwhere I
was to find my luggage in charge of my mother's servant. Mrs.
Meldrum put before me the question of waiting till a later train
so as not to lose our young ladybut I confess I gave this
alternative a consideration less acute than I pretended. Somehow I
didn't care if I did lose our young lady. Now that I knew the
worst that had befallen her it struck me still less as possible to
meet her on the ground of condolence; and with the sad appearance
she wore to me what other ground was left? I lost herbut I
caught my train. In truth she was so changed that one hated to see
it; and now that she was in charitable hands one didn't feel
compelled to make great efforts. I had studied her face for a
particular beauty; I had lived with that beauty and reproduced it;
but I knew what belonged to my trade well enough to be sure it was
gone for ever.
I was soon called back to Folkestone; but Mrs. Meldrum and her
young friend had already left Englandfinding to that end every
convenience on the spot and not having had to come up to town. My
thoughts however were so painfully engaged there that I should in
any case have had little attention for them: the event occurred
that was to bring my series of visits to a close. When this high
tide had ebbed I returned to America and to my interrupted work
which had opened out on such a scale thatwith a deep plunge into
a great chanceI was three good years in rising again to the
surface. There are nymphs and naiads moreover in the American
depths: they may have had something to do with the duration of my
dive. I mention them to account for a grave misdemeanor--the fact
that after the first year I rudely neglected Mrs. Meldrum. She had
written to me from Florence after my mother's death and had
mentioned in a postscript that in our young lady's calculations the
lowest figures were now Italian counts. This was a good omenand
if in subsequent letters there was no news of a sequel I was
content to accept small things and to believe that grave tidings
should there be anywould come to me in due course. The gravity
of what might happen to a featherweight became indeed with time and
distance less appreciableand I was not without an impression that
Mrs. Meldrumwhose sense of proportion was not the least of her
meritshad no idea of boring the world with the ups and downs of
her pensioner. The poor girl grew dusky and dima small fitful
memorya regret tempered by the comfortable consciousness of how
kind Mrs. Meldrum would always be to her. I was professionally
more preoccupied than I had ever beenand I had swarms of pretty
faces in my eyes and a chorus of loud tones in my ears. Geoffrey
Dawling had on his return to England written me two or three
letters: his last information had been that he was going into the
figures of rural illiteracy. I was delighted to receive it and had
no doubt that if he should go into figures they wouldas they are
said to be able to prove anythingprove at least that my advice
was sound and that he had wasted time enough. This quickened on my
part another hopea hope suggested by some roundabout rumour--I
forget how it reached me--that he was engaged to a girl down in
Hampshire. He turned out not to bebut I felt sure that if only
he went into figures deep enough he would becomeamong the girls
down in Hampshire or elsewhereone of those numerous prizes of
battle whose defences are practically not on the scale of their
provocations. I nursed in short the thought that it was probably
open to him to develop as one of the types about whomas the years
go onsuperficial critics wonder without relief how they ever
succeeded in dragging a bride to the altar. He never alluded to
Flora Saunt; and there was in his silence about herquite as in
Mrs. Meldrum'san element of instinctive tacta brief implication
that if you didn't happen to have been in love with her there was
nothing to be said.
Within a week after my return to London I went to the operaof
which I had always been much of a devotee. I arrived too late for
the first act of "Lohengrin but the second was just beginning,
and I gave myself up to it with no more than a glance at the house.
When it was over I treated myself, with my glass, from my place in
the stalls, to a general survey of the boxes, making doubtless on
their contents the reflections, pointed by comparison, that are
most familiar to the wanderer restored to London. There was the
common sprinkling of pretty women, but I suddenly noted that one of
these was far prettier than the others. This lady, alone in one of
the smaller receptacles of the grand tier and already the aim of
fifty tentative glasses, which she sustained with admirable
serenity, this single exquisite figure, placed in the quarter
furthest removed from my stall, was a person, I immediately felt,
to cause one's curiosity to linger. Dressed in white, with
diamonds in her hair and pearls on her neck, she had a pale
radiance of beauty which even at that distance made her a
distinguished presence and, with the air that easily attaches to
lonely loveliness in public places, an agreeable mystery. A
mystery however she remained to me only for a minute after I had
levelled my glass at her: I feel to this moment the startled
thrill, the shock almost of joy, with which I translated her vague
brightness into a resurrection of Flora. I say a resurrection,
because, to put it crudely, I had on that last occasion left our
young woman for dead. At present perfectly alive again, she was
altered only, as it were, by this fact of life. A little older, a
little quieter, a little finer and a good deal fairer, she was
simply transfigured by having recovered. Sustained by the
reflection that even her recovery wouldn't enable her to
distinguish me in the crowd, I was free to look at her well. Then
it was it came home to me that my vision of her in her great
goggles had been cruelly final. As her beauty was all there was of
her, that machinery had extinguished her, and so far as I had
thought of her in the interval I had thought of her as buried in
the tomb her stern specialist had built. With the sense that she
had escaped from it came a lively wish to return to her; and if I
didn't straightway leave my place and rush round the theatre and up
to her box it was because I was fixed to the spot some moments
longer by the simple inability to cease looking at her.
She had been from the first of my seeing her practically
motionless, leaning back in her chair with a kind of thoughtful
grace and with her eyes vaguely directed, as it seemed on me, to
one of the boxes on my side of the house and consequently over my
head and out of my sight. The only movement she made for some time
was to finger with an ungloved hand and as if with the habit of
fondness the row of pearls on her neck, which my glass showed me to
be large and splendid. Her diamonds and pearls, in her solitude,
mystified me, making me, as she had had no such brave jewels in the
days of the Hammond Synges, wonder what undreamt-of improvement had
taken place in her fortunes. The ghost of a question hovered there
a moment: could anything so prodigious have happened as that on
her tested and proved amendment Lord Iffield had taken her back?
This could scarce have without my hearing of it; and moreover if
she had become a person of such fashion where was the little court
one would naturally see at her elbow? Her isolation was puzzling,
though it could easily suggest that she was but momentarily alone.
If she had come with Mrs. Meldrum that lady would have taken
advantage of the interval to pay a visit to some other box-doubtless
the box at which Flora had just been looking. Mrs.
Meldrum didn't account for the jewels, but the revival of Flora's
beauty accounted for anything. She presently moved her eyes over
the house, and I felt them brush me again like the wings of a dove.
I don't know what quick pleasure flickered into the hope that she
would at last see me. She did see me: she suddenly bent forward
to take up the little double-barrelled ivory glass that rested on
the edge of the box and to all appearance fix me with it. I smiled
from my place straight up at the searching lenses, and after an
instant she dropped them and smiled as straight back at me. Oh her
smile--it was her old smile, her young smile, her very own smile
made perfect! I instantly left my stall and hurried off for a
nearer view of it; quite flushed, I remember, as I went with the
annoyance of having happened to think of the idiotic way I had
tried to paint her. Poor Iffield with his sample of that error,
and still poorer Dawling in particular with HIS! I hadn't touched
her, I was professionally humiliated, and as the attendant in the
lobby opened her box for me I felt that the very first thing I
should have to say to her would be that she must absolutely sit to
She gave me the smile once more as over her shoulder, from her
chair, she turned her face to me. Here you are again!" she
exclaimed with her disgloved hand put up a little backward for me
to take. I dropped into a chair just behind her andhaving taken
it and noted that one of the curtains of the box would make the
demonstration sufficiently privatebent my lips over it and
impressed them on its finger-tips. It was given me howeverto my
astonishmentto feel next that all the privacy in the world
couldn't have sufficed to mitigate the start with which she greeted
this free application of my moustache: the blood had jumped to her
faceshe quickly recovered her hand and jerked at metwisting
herself rounda vacant challenging stare. During the next few
instants several extraordinary things happenedthe first of which
was that now I was close to them the eyes of loveliness I had come
up to look into didn't show at all the conscious light I had just
been pleased to see them flash across the house: they showed on
the contraryto my confusiona strange sweet blanknessan
expression I failed to give a meaning to untilwithout delayI
felt on my armdirected to it as if instantly to efface the effect
of her startthe grasp of the hand she had impulsively snatched
from me. It was the irrepressible question in this grasp that
stopped on my lips all sound of salutation. She had mistaken my
entrance for that of another persona pair of lips without a
moustache. She was feeling me to see who I was! With the
perception of this and of her not seeing me I sat gaping at her and
at the wild word that didn't comethe right word to express or to
disguise my dismay. What was the right word to commemorate one's
sudden discoveryat the very moment too at which one had been most
encouraged to count on better thingsthat one's dear old friend
had gone blind? Before the answer to this question dropped upon
me--and the moving momentsthough fewseemed many--I heardwith
the sound of voicesthe click of the attendant's key on the other
side of the door. Poor Flora heard also and on hearingstill with
her hand on my armbrightened again as I had a minute since seen
her brighten across the house: she had the sense of the return of
the person she had taken me for--the person with the right pair of
lipsas to whom I was for that matter much more in the dark than
she. I gaspedbut my word had come: if she had lost her sight it
was in this very loss that she had found again her beauty. I
managed to speak while we were still alonebefore her companion
had appeared. "You're lovelier at this day than you have ever been
in your life!" At the sound of my voice and that of the opening of
the door her impatience broke into audible joy. She sprang up
recognising mealways holding meand gleefully cried to a
gentleman who was arrested in the doorway by the sight of me: "He
has come backhe has come backand you should have heard what he
says of me!" The gentleman was Geoffrey Dawlingand I thought it
best to let him hear on the spot. "How beautiful she ismy dear
man--but how extraordinarily beautiful! More beautiful at this
hour than everever before!"
It gave them almost equal pleasure and made Dawling blush to his
eyes; while this in turn producedin spite of deepened
astonishmenta blest snap of the strain I had been struggling
with. I wanted to embrace them bothand while the opening bars of
another scene rose from the orchestra I almost did embrace Dawling
whose first emotion on beholding me had visibly and ever so oddly
been a consciousness of guilt. I had caught him somehow in the
actthough that was as yet all I knew; but by the time we sank
noiselessly into our chairs again--for the music was supreme
Wagner passed first--my demonstration ought pretty well to have
given him the limit of the criticism he had to fear. I myself
indeedwhile the opera blazedwas only too afraid he might divine
in our silent closeness the very moral of my optimismwhich was
simply the comfort I had gathered from seeing that if our
companion's beauty lived again her vanity partook of its life. I
had hit on the right note--that was what eased me off: it drew all
pain for the next half-hour from the sense of the deep darkness in
which the stricken woman sat. If the musicin that darkness
happily soared and swelled for herit beat its wings in unison
with those of a gratified passion. A great deal came and went
between us without profaning the occasionso that I could feel at
the end of twenty minutes as if I knew almost everything he might
in kindness have to tell me; knew even why Florawhile I stared at
her from the stallshad misled me by the use of ivory and crystal
and by appearing to recognise me and smile. She leaned back in her
chair in luxurious ease: I had from the first become aware that
the way she fingered her pearls was a sharp image of the wedded
state. Nothing of old had seemed wanting to her assurancebut I
hadn't then dreamed of the art with which she would wear that
assurance as a married woman. She had taken him when everything
had failed; he had taken her when she herself had done so. His
embarrassed eyes confessed it allconfessed the deep peace he
found in it. They only didn't tell me why he had not written to
menor clear up as yet a minor obscurity. Flora after a while
again lifted the glass from the ledge of the box and elegantly
swept the house with it. Thenby the mere instinct of her grace
a motion but half consciousshe inclined her head into the void
with the sketch of a saluteproducingI could seea perfect
imitation of response to some homage. Dawling and I looked at each
other again; the tears came into his eyes. She was playing at
perfection stilland her misfortune only simplified the process.
I recognised that this was as near as I should ever comecertainly
as I should come that nightto pressing on her misfortune.
Neither of us would name it more than we were doing thenand Flora
would never name it at all. Little by little I saw that what had
occurred wasstrange as it might appearthe best thing for her
happiness. The question was now only of her beauty and her being
seen and marvelled at; with Dawling to do for her everything in
life her activity was limited to that. Such an activity was all
within her scope; it asked nothing of her that she couldn't
splendidly give. As from time to time in our delicate communion
she turned her face to me with the parody of a look I lost none of
the signs of its strange new glory. The expression of the eyes was
a rub of pastel from a master's thumb; the whole headstamped with
a sort of showy sufferinghad gained a fineness from what she had
passed through. YesFlora was settled for life--nothing could
hurt her further. I foresaw the particular praise she would mostly
incur--she would be invariably "interesting." She would charm with
her pathos more even than she had charmed with her pleasure. For
herself above all she was fixed for everrescued from all change
and ransomed from all doubt. Her old certaintiesher old vanities
were justified and sanctifiedand in the darkness that had closed
upon her one object remained clear. That objectas unfading as a
mosaic maskwas fortunately the loveliest she could possibly look
upon. The greatest blessing of all was of course that Dawling
thought so. Her future was ruled with the straightest lineand so
for that matter was his. There were two facts to which before I
left my friends I gave time to sink into my spirit. One was that
he had changed by some process as effective as Flora's changehad
been simplified somehow into service as she had been simplified
into success. He was such a picture of inspired intervention as I
had never yet conceived: he would exist henceforth for the sole
purpose of rendering unnecessaryor rather impossibleany
reference even on her own part to his wife's infirmity. Oh yes
how little desire he would ever give ME to refer to it! He
principally after a while made me feel--and this was my second
lesson--thatgood-natured as he wasmy being there to see it all
oppressed him; so that by the time the act ended I recognised that
I too had filled out my hour. Dawling remembered things; I think
he caught in my very face the irony of old judgments: they made
him thresh about in his chair. I said to Flora as I took leave of
her that I would come to see herbut I may mention that I never
went. I'd go to-morrow if I hear she wants me; but what in the
world can she ever want? As I quitted them I laid my hand on
Dawling's armand drew him for a moment into the lobby.
Why did you never write to me of your marriage?
He smiled uncomfortablyshowing his long yellow teeth and
something more. "I don't know--the whole thing gave me such a
tremendous lot to do."
This was the first dishonest speech I had heard him make: he
really hadn't written because an idea that I would think him a
still bigger fool than before. I didn't insistbut I tried there
in the lobbyso far as a pressure of his hand could serve meto
give him a notion of what I thought him. "I can't at any rate make
out I said, why I didn't hear from Mrs. Meldrum."
She didn't write to you?
Never a word. What has become of her?
I think she's at Folkestone,Dawling returned; "but I'm sorry to
say that practically she has ceased to see us."
You haven't quarrelled with her?
How COULD we? Think of all we owe her. At the time of our
marriage, and for months before, she did everything for us: I
don't know how we should have managed without her. But since then
she has never been near us and has given us rather markedly little
encouragement to keep up relations with her.
I was struck with thisthough of course I admit I am struck with
all sorts of things. "Well I said after a moment, even if I
could imagine a reason for that attitude it wouldn't explain why
she shouldn't have taken account of my natural interest."
Just so.Dawling's face was a windowless wall. He could
contribute nothing to the mystery andquitting himI carried it
away. It was not till I went down to ace Mrs. Meldrum that was
really dispelled. She didn't want to hear of them or to talk of
themnot a bitand it was just in the same spirit that she hadn't
wanted to write of them. She had done everything in the world for
thembut nowthank heaventhe hard business was over. After I
had taken this inwhich I was quick to dowe quite avoided the
subject. She simply couldn't bear it.